Archive for April 2012

Conventionally,

intentionally,

A rhyme,

within some reason.

The thoughts would arrive,

and coincide,

with,

the changing of the seasons.

 

On the cusp and in between,

is tougher than,

it first may seem.

Spring and fall would play that part,

and paint the world with natures art.

 

Now summer would explode at life,

as winter would corrode at life.

These two had temperaments not at ease,

where as one may scorch,

the other,

would freeze.

 

Alike yet different in their ways,

were the two extreme.

For on the cusp and in between

is tougher than,

it first may seem.

Fall and spring would play that part,

and paint the world with natures art.

 

 

©2012 Louis J. Auslander

For the better part of nothing,

I found a clearing there,

with space to breathe,

a place so freed.

I found my solace there.

 

For the better part of nothing,

It  is more than blank I see

It is the white,

that frames the sight

around the objects that are to be.

 

 

For the better part of nothing,

all sound will travel there

it will amplify and fade

yet always return,

from where it came.

 

For the better part of nothing,

the non-touch of the touch

the subtle in between,

so light, so soft, so slow

yet felt beyond extreme.

 

 

For the better part of nothing,

no boredom do I find.

refreshed, reset,

rejuvenated, 

I found my peace of mind.

 

©2012 Louis J. Auslander

 

If life is game to you,

if you’re plotting your next play to do,

then more is loss from you.

There may be monetary gain for you,

yet if the ways are not true,

there will be a significant loss for you,

at such a cost to you.

 

When your part of that game,

You will have gone far away…

Where have you gone?

How could you play?

When you sell out your soul

for a chance and a roll.

“You” will be lost for paying that toll.

 

If you want to win at life,

go at it with all your might.

Give all of you, too all you do.

Give all of you to all.

There are no cards worth hiding,

A life of deceiving and conniving is a shame.

So level up and then you’ll see life is not a game!

 

 

©2012 Louis J. Auslander

©2012 Louis J. Auslander

©2012 Louis J. Auslander

 

 

Forty one times around the sun.

Yet, still so much more too see.

©2012 Louis J. Auslander

I started out in heaven, as

clear a conscious as can be.

Then projected onto me the

delusional reality that could not be.

I fought hard with fist and tongue

as the ego ruled the school grounds.

All was to be formulated over years…

of the schools structuring,

over years… of this is how we act

this is how we shall be.

Over years…of that was never me.

When you’re older you can do as you want.

When you’re older, you can make your own rules.

That day turned into “You are now an adult so do what your told”,

“Oh, you’re a childish dreamer, grow up! ” they would say.

So, it was off to work in a hell I made.

I am not happy, this is not fair,

spinning my wheels, getting no where!

This unforeseen escape from hell was yet an investment into

the deeper depths of the self made hell.

Oh this work sucks! This world is terrible! I had a tough week!

Lets go drink! You got some dope to smoke? What do you have?

Lets over eat! Lets find some sex! Lets escape this world, it is no good!

For a moment I’d forget…

For a moment I chased hell away…

Or did I ?

Every moment that I thought I were away,

I dug deeper into my self decay.

Until I decided to reclaim me.

To be me one moment at  a time…

I would climb  out of hell.

One decision at a time…

Each day I would learn to quiet the voice of bad habit.

To silence the hard wiring of what should not be.

Each day I would listen to the voice that was me,

the voice that had been quiet for so long.

I would surface as a new man yet, the same man

or should I say the reclaimed man.

Now back on solid ground, I keep building towards the sky.

Building towards the heavens to where I once begun.

Still so much more to see,

after forty one times around the sun…

©2012 Louis J. Auslander

©2012 Louis J. Auslander

The soil had to be turned over and over again.

The weeds removed by their roots like bad habits,

yanked and pulled from my very soul.

Just below the surface roots were easily chopped

and cut away with the spade.

This was only a temporary fix at best.

The tap roots run deep, they the source that branch out

to assure their survival. I worked hard in the light of day

 

digging deep into the earth. I followed the rootlets

from their up rooted surfaces to their taproots deep within.

One by one these clusters of tuberous roots were being removed.

The soul turned over and over again cleansed of waste and debris

rooted bad habits removed at the surface and then deeper at their source.

The turning of the soil creates space for air to travel through the earth.

The earth breathes in the same purifying air that we do the toxins released

©2012 Louis J. Auslander

and dissipated as we exhale them into the flowing wind.

After much aeration, uprooting and cleansing of debris the soils wondrous

matrix is taking foot.

©2012 Louis J. Auslander

Now we feed the soil.

 

Now we feed the soul.

 

Now we have,

 

some space.

 

for the garden to grow…

 

©2012 Louis J. Auslander

 

So I tried something new and fasted for 48 hours. I have only drank water for the last 2 days. Amazingly, I have had a very great experience.

 

I took it kinda easy the first day yet, I did walk a couple of miles and did attend a yoga class other then that I read and took it easy getting in

 

more tune with my body. My yoga class was one of the best ones I ever attended I felt tremendous amounts of joy. The whole fasting

 

experience was full of joy quite often. I was surprised that I have not felt to much hunger or cravings for food. There were some but I guess I put

 

myself into the mindset of seeing this through for the betterment of my health and not as some sort of sacrifice or as depriving myself of food. I did have

 

some dreams of food and of eating It seemed tougher in the dreamworld more so then in my waking world. Perhaps That is where I dealt with

 

some of the tougher times which then allowed me to enjoy the fast. I honestly did enjoy it so much I decided I was

 

going to go for a run today. I was not sure what this would do but I felt it was what I should do, so I did.

 

I ran 5 miles at what would be hour 42 of the water fast. Running on empty was surprisingly one of the most amazing joyful runs I have ever

 

had. I was smiling and loving it all the way. I went into the gym and thought lets have a go at some pull-ups. I have been working on those

 

since the winter and the maximum I have done at one time was 5 or maybe 6. Today I was able to do ten no problem.

 

I do not recommend for anyone to do what I do. I do recommend getting in touch with your intuition and listening to it and your body then you can

 

never go wrong no matter how outlandish it may seem. I do recommend to push the limits of yourself to question everything you think you know and

 

to try knew things in life. This has been my third fast ever the other two were for 24 hours. This by far has been the most enjoyable body and mind

 

learning experience of the three. Maybe next spring I will go for a week fast who knows I will have to see that then for now, I know I have made the

 

right decisions. I am now at hour 46 and still feel quite well and not overly hungry. Energy wise I still have much. Who would have thought?

 

Not me! You never know nothing new until you try something new. I do look forward to eating in 2 hours though!

 

Happy Easter to ALL !!!

The winter season had dug me deep within

the unwholesome corridors to the nooks within

the darker rooms.

Through them I sailed delivering the light

blinding the demons out of the night.

Oh, the winter dance was one of

love and plenty brightening and

warming those cold emptied rooms.

Spring cleaning has begun,

letting go of all that winter rust that once weighed me down.

I need not travel with such,

on the long winding roads of my running days.

The space that I created so light and free to embrace

the season of great offerings, the season of newness,

the season of new beginnings!

©2012 Louis J. Auslander

The biggest problem with wrong and right is the thought of thinking in such polarities.

I have learned much more from outthinking such thought in life then I have learned

in settling for such easy answers as yes or no.

Pain is not bad nor is it good in my mind. If it had to be seen in such polarity

I would have to see it as good. More accurately I would define it as an indication

of where attention is needed. I cannot heal what I cannot feel. This is why it is

important not to numb myself with medications or foods that do such to

the mind body connection. This is but one example, examine your life as you

go through your day to day activities, are you settling for the easy answers of

“Yes, or No?”. Ironically this can be your new “Yes or No” question to yourself.

It’s not as easy as night and day nor black and white, yet it is much more rewarding,

inspiring, and exciting once we look at life for what it is, rather then seeing it in such

limiting mindful thoughts. After all, if you were to watch the night turn into day, then

the day back into night, while watching the whole day and night in-between, you would see

it is all a gradual change from darkness into light then lightness into dark

over and over again with variances and differences throughout the seasons.

It is not simply night and day.

 

© 2012 Louis J. Auslander