running into the eye of the hurricane

Tuesday, April 7, 2015


Pain is one thing, suffering is another.  I push through certain amounts of pain when I run.

Suffering or adding negative thoughts or emotions to your pain, is adding more pain to a

unpleasant situation. When I run, it is important to feel different levels of pain, without it I would not know

what to do. I would not know wether to continue and push through or to stop, if I did  not become intune

with my bodies signals of pain. The same is true in life and in painful situations. It is as important for me to feel

emotional and mental pain as it is for me to feel pleasure. Running has taught me to feel the moment in the moment.

In  a sense it has taught me to standstill, to not run from feelings of pain but  to feel them. When I feel pain I do not run for

some booze  or food  or a smoke. I learn to feel it and let it go. Avoiding feelings with substances or just plain mental avoidance

can only lead to unresovled issues within ourselves. Thus leading to more pain. I  listen to it and what it is telling me . Is it telling me to stop?

Or should I push through? Pushing the boundries of  the pain/pleasure thresholds in either direction allows me to devulge  into deeper

understandings of life and of me.

When changing or learning, we are traveling into uncharted territory. We are making new routes, rewiring our brains is what I like to call it.

This takes breaking connections and making new connections. During transition we have one foot on the shore and one foot in the water so to speak.

There  will be tendecies to play it safe and and stick to the old patterns even if we  know them to be more harmful for us.

The body is an animal and has instincts to play it safe, to stick to it’s routines, which is great if your doing the best for yourself

and you have developed healthy habits. Yet, if you are transitioning from poor habits to good habits then this wiring has to be overrun.

There will be times when we are making great leaps into the new healthy habits and then times when the old habits resurface. There will be times

we overide the impuses to act out on the old habits and times when we give into the impulses. This is all part of the process, persisitency is

the key. Learning always has mistakes and set backs in it. The rewiring does not occur over night, after-all you did not develop bad habits

over night they were wired and hardwired over time. The good news is in my experience it takes expotentially less time to rewire them

then the time you spent indulging in the bad habit.

I push harder and harder as I run sometimes not knowing how much more I can give… but I give. Each time I stretch

my limits and cover new ground, I advance. There is pain but I do not add suffering. I add optomism more times then not.

I know it’s going to get better if I persist so I persist. The same was true when I battled my through bad habits. I knew

in my deepest of despare that things were going to get better. I needed to persist. At times when quitting harsh

physically,mentally and emotionally addicting substances it would have been much easier to give up, to give in, yet

I knew if I persist things would get better. At times when running the same is true. It would seem easier, reasonable and logical

to just stop . Afterall who is going to know? The answer is you are. You are going to know that you did not push on that you

gave in. This may happen or may not happen at times, if it does it further drives me to drive harder next time when I am

in that situation. I mostly drive through. I have pushed these thresholds many of times and to stop at the first sign of

pain or signal to stop would have served myself a grave injustice. These decisions are made in the moment. I have a plan

(the minds idea)when I train or in certain workouts just as I have a plan when changing diet or any other bad habits I may have. That’s

just it it is a “plan”. In the moment is when the decisions are made they may agree with the plan or they may not. It is important

to listen to thr body in the moment. Not the mind as much, the mind may tell you to quit when you should keep on. The mind may tell you

to keep on when you should quit. The body, the instincts, know best. With great interest when I push my running, I listen to the body.

I ask questions should I continue on? I diregard what the mind might say, the ego might try to  encourage me to push on despite any pain feedback.

This I feel can lead to serious injury. Avoidance of pain and the “no pain no gain mantra” can cause you considerable more pain then needed.

The mind can overide the bodies signals at times if you let it but at what cost? Adversly, if I am to quit at the first sign of pain signal to the mind

there is no advancement there are no limits being pushed. Listening to th ebody works the best. The little signals of pain are warnigns to listen yet, proceed with caution.

These often occur when just starting to warm  up they are blips.




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