Posts Tagged ‘heaven’

©2012 Louis J. Auslander

©2012 Louis J. Auslander



Forty one times around the sun.

Yet, still so much more too see.

©2012 Louis J. Auslander

I started out in heaven, as

clear a conscious as can be.

Then projected onto me the

delusional reality that could not be.

I fought hard with fist and tongue

as the ego ruled the school grounds.

All was to be formulated over years…

of the schools structuring,

over years… of this is how we act

this is how we shall be.

Over years…of that was never me.

When you’re older you can do as you want.

When you’re older, you can make your own rules.

That day turned into “You are now an adult so do what your told”,

“Oh, you’re a childish dreamer, grow up! ” they would say.

So, it was off to work in a hell I made.

I am not happy, this is not fair,

spinning my wheels, getting no where!

This unforeseen escape from hell was yet an investment into

the deeper depths of the self made hell.

Oh this work sucks! This world is terrible! I had a tough week!

Lets go drink! You got some dope to smoke? What do you have?

Lets over eat! Lets find some sex! Lets escape this world, it is no good!

For a moment I’d forget…

For a moment I chased hell away…

Or did I ?

Every moment that I thought I were away,

I dug deeper into my self decay.

Until I decided to reclaim me.

To be me one moment at  a time…

I would climb  out of hell.

One decision at a time…

Each day I would learn to quiet the voice of bad habit.

To silence the hard wiring of what should not be.

Each day I would listen to the voice that was me,

the voice that had been quiet for so long.

I would surface as a new man yet, the same man

or should I say the reclaimed man.

Now back on solid ground, I keep building towards the sky.

Building towards the heavens to where I once begun.

Still so much more to see,

after forty one times around the sun…

©2012 Louis J. Auslander

Why does the general public still even listen to the media as a form of reality?


The media has as much power as the listeners choose to give it.


Why give up this power?


Its willingly giving up reality for a belief in someone else’s formatted agenda twisted driven  reality.


Sometimes there is some truth to the news.


Sometimes there is complete fabrication.


Sometimes it is somewhere in between.


Inevitably in most, if not all cases this reality they portray is there  to sway your thoughts.


Many times complete nonsense is the story of the day, the week, the year.


Then everyone is complaining ” How is this newsworthy!” they scream and yell.


“Who cares about this?” they scream!, “We should be concerned about this instead?” they bark out with hands raised in anger!


We claim stake over the news media that we so identify with as our source of reality.


Other stories captivate and play on severe injustices which turn the listeners into a vengeful lynch mob.


Watching intently to the day justice is served and the villain hung before all.


Either way they play their game to captivate you into their reality drawing upon a judgement in you.


Oh, these are but a couple of the techniques that have been going on and played on the public since


the beginnings of human organized society.


The truth that I have become to realize is that the world is far worst and far better then they will ever portray


in mainstream news media.


The world in which you live in is heaven or hell depending on how you see it and how you make it.


To find your personal heaven or hell in this world is your choice.


Why let the news media influence your reality?


It’s your head what do you want in it?


Will this ever change?


Is it really reality?


That choice is ours.


© 2012 Louis J. Auslander

If you trust no one, no one trust you. If you trust others, others trust you.

If you think everyones out to screw you over and take advantage of you.

You guessed it…. everyone is!

We make are own scenarios, it depends on what you want in life.

Do you want to create?

Create yourself, create for others, share, courage, love, security, create a mind worth living in…

Do you want to destroy?

Destroy yourself, destroy others, isolate, fear, insecurities, hate, destructive mind…

Do you want Heaven or Hell?

It’s all in your head.

What do you want?

Where do you want to call home?


© 2012 Louie J. Auslander